Wistful Birthday
Ah, Birthdays...each year they come and go and give me a moment of reflection about my life, where I've been and where I'm going...dreams fulfilled, goals unmet, disappointments, etc. Today is my birthday once again and as I was driving around this morning I couldn't help but think and be grateful that I'm still alive...I mean when I was 18, or 12 or 5...I had no idea that I'd still be alive now...I couldn't imagine how it would be to have lived 25, 29, 30, 33, (you get the idea) years...and especially being the melancholy sort of guy that I am...there were some dark days for sure that I couldn't imagine living through the month, let alone another year...you know? So I'm glad I hung in there to see this year and to experience everything previous year's have brought my way - good, bad, joyful, ecstatic, melancholy, and holy...Life is a pretty amazing thing, and I never want to take it for granted.
I awoke to the sound of our phone ringing this morning and then not hearing the answering machine pick-up I thought, oh it's probably my parents singing me Happy Birthday again this year, but they're waiting for me to pick up the phone. Because what was happening was, the phone kept ringing every few minutes until we finally picked up - it probably rang like 5 or 6 times, with a 4-5 ring cycle each of those times (does that make sense?). After I saw it was 6:00 in the morning, I realized that whoever was calling this early was calling because of an emergency and that kinda scared me a bit...Anyway, to not go into to much detail - it wasn't my parents and no one was dying (thankfully) but because of who was calling I had to get out of bed and do some early morning driving, which I'm thankful for, because it brought about my present thoughts.
It's amazing the things that shape our life and give our life meaning. I realized this morning how much a good CD (go easy on me...it's not that I don't embrace the new technology - I just can't afford it...however that said...my CD was burned from files I downloaded from iTunes...) can just make things so much more vibrant, joyful, and reflective in my life. The CD I was listening to in the car was Magnet's On Your Side. Thanks to my friend Nathan who turned me onto this band (really it's just one guy)...I was able to really listen to the words this morning and his choice of production ideas and those things mixed with the raindrops and the hazy early morning mugginess just made me get all reflective and thankful and oh, I guess you could say, wistful...
Btw...some good things have happened on this day through-out history (brought to you by this):
- In 1967, Jerusalem was re-unified as Israel removed barricades separating the Old City from the Israeli sector.
- In 1972, the Supreme Court ruled the death penalty, as it was being meted out, could constitute "cruel and unusual punishment." (The ruling prompted states to revise their capital punishment law
- In 1992, a divided Supreme Court ruled that women have a constitutional right to abortion, but the justices also weakened the right as defined by the Roe v. Wade decision.
- Movie producer Robert Evans (if you haven't seen The Kid Stays in the Picture...well you should...it's a great documentary about moviemaking...)
- DJ Shadow
- Brandon Forbes (aka Big Cougar)
- Kara Kindall (Parrish)
And my closing thought - thanks again to the Washington Post for this quote:
"Thought for Today: "These are times in which a genius would wish to live. It is not in the still calm of life, or the repose of a pacific station, that great characters are formed ... Great necessities call out great virtues." _ Abigail Adams, American first lady (1744-1818)."



